What Is This Pain?

I have this pain inside of me;
It comes from deep within.
I'm not sure when it started;
Or what caused it to begin.

It's like there is a hole in me;
Punched right through my heart.
I don't feel as if I'm whole inside;
I feel I'm pulled apart.

What is this ache inside of me?
This constant nagging pain?
It's as if the sun will never shine;
And I'm forever doomed with rain.

There's no more smiles on my face;
Or laughter to be heard.
I sit and let the days go by;
And rarely speak a word.

Could this be what is called depression?
There is no hope for me.
The future holds more pain and suffering;
That's all that I can see.

© Betty Hawkins 2003
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