My Inner AGONY called Panic Disorder

I used to lead a "normal" life;
I even had a job.
Then one night, from out of no where;
My "normal" life was robbed.

I had difficulty swallowing;
There was a rapid beating of my heart.
A total feeling of panic set in;
My life was falling apart!

I was daignosed with Panic Disorder;
I take medicine every day.
It's changed my life completely;
In every possible way.

My "safe" person is my husband, Bill;
My "safe place" is the four walls of my home.
I am afraid to be in a crowd of people;
And I'm afraid to be alone.

I tried to explain to some of my friends;
And to all of my family.
But none of them understands my Hell inside;
No one understands, but me.

My "normal" life is trapped inside;
I may never see it come out.
I am still confused about all of it;
I don't know what it's all about.

I am left with many unanswered questions;
"Why did this happen to me?"
"Will I ever be "normal" again?"
"Will I get rid of this AGONY?"

© Betty Hawkins 2003
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