If I Were An Orphan

If I had been an orphan;
And living all alone.
I doubt that anyone would want me;
Or want to take me home.

I must have been so ugly;
Not pretty in anyones eyes.
Maybe that's why all I felt;
Was lonliness and despise.

I must have been a throw back;
That made them feel ashamed.
I felt like it was all my fault;
I was the one to be blamed.

I was always in the way;
Just another mouth to feed.
If only I were an orpahn;
They wouldn't have felt the need.

They were forced to feed me;
And put clothes upon my back.
I always kept things to myself;
For fear of an attack.

No one should have to feel like this;
Or harbor this hatred inside.
You should grow up surrouded by love;
And feelings of great pride!

My children will never feel unwanted;
The way I was made to feel.
And the cuts that I bore way back then;
Will never completely heal.

No, I wasn't really an orphan;
I was given parents by God above.
The only thing he forget to tell them;
Was how to show some love!

© Betty Hawkins 2003
(All Rights Reserved)