To My Sister and Brother

You're my older sister and brother;
And I love you both so much.
But it's a distant, kind of love;
Like we can never touch.

I don't feel like I am family now;
We've grown so far apart.
You are my sister and brother, by blood;
But there's an emptiness in my heart.

You seem to treat me like a stranger;
And I cannot understand why.
What could I possibly have done to you;
That would cause such hurt that I cry.

Does it have anything to do with Mama;
And the way that we all were.
I did the very best I could;
Living there and caring for her.

It wasn't easy doing that;
Twentyfour hours a day.
But I promised I would do it;
And I did my best, my way.

I wish that you could understand;
And I could make you see.
That at times she made it difficult;
And made it hard for me.

It hurts more than you'll ever know;
The horrible things said to me.
How can you hurt someone you're supposed to love;
I tried to understand, but can't see.

I have made my peace with God;
And I know that He understands.
And it will be clear to all concerned;
When He holds us in His hands.

Now I wonder if we'll ever be close;
Because I choose this life I live.
I certainly wish things could be different;
I will always have love to give.

© Betty Hawkins 2003
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